A Rough Day..!!

Sometimes we start our day with full enthusiasm and then observe ourselves doing things differently, not in a pleasantly different way. And you know deep down within you:

This is not your style of working,
This is not how you do things usually,
This is not how you respond to things,
This is not how you perceive things,
This is not how you have ever done anything,
Suddenly you have lost your quick-wittedness,
Your presence of mind is blown away.

 

And this is certainly not the way you have ever spent your day and you would even ever wish to. This day and most moments in that day are a little different, different in some way, different in the way than all of your days passed by so far, there is something that makes you worried. You want your thoughts and mind to run in a different direction, to leverage something positive out of anything you think, anything you do, anything you sense around, the way you perceive things, comprehend and respond to external stimuli and  just be back to your normale. But your thoughts are just stuck somewhere, that too unknowingly, around something unknown, around something you do not want to waste your time on and you are still there, thinking of a way to get out of it. You find yourself very ineffective and inefficient compared to what you have always been and then you realize this is not you.

I don't know if anyone among the people out there, who would ever open this link and read this post, have felt this way.

I think there is something which is troubling my mind at this moment, at this very day. I realized this as the day passed by and now I think that I need a break, I need a brisk walk out on the road and inhale some fresh, soothing & relaxing breeze, to let it seep in, rejuvenate me & my soul and make everything else seep out.

Most of the times, an evening walk or a morning one, is more than a medicine to get rid of anything and everything, to unoccupy your mind and make a fresh start again! Atleast it works that way for me, just find out something that works for you.

May be I am Arrogant..!!

You may feel I am arrogant but if you think that... I can't help it, that's your thinking about me and I am literally not bothered about it. You may think just anything about me, like it matters to me. I am writing this post based on some of my personal experiences..

I always feel it's nice to help people and it really really really feels great when somebody appreciates you for all the good things you have done to them, in case they do :) . I personally tell everything I notice about someone, may it be good or bad, you may like it or you may not like it, in one or the other conversations with the person. It's just that I have things sorted out almost from the very first day. I don't want to create any kind of false impressions about me in front of anyone, false just does not mean bad here, neither more good than I can be to someone nor more worse than what I am. I just be what I would at least be to that person for the rest of my life until you force me to change for bad ;) . And you need not be that nice to me in return, it's just that don't try to act too smart and mean to me, because I could me much more worse than that to you, if I felt the need to..

I am too much into observing people and trying to find out why the person behaved in that particular way, given a particular situation, but that does not mean that I am GOD, I may also freak out at times, in fact most of the times, if you test my patience to the last possible extent. I like to cherish all the good, innocent people around who do not fake out anything, even if you are bad or have done something wrong, but you feel guilty about it, I would be the first one to help you out of the situation, but then don't expect me to nod my head and say you did what exactly you were supposed to. I will say right on your face even in front of 10 or more odd people if you try to act over smart or cover up your mistake without taking a learning out of it.

I am not always right, am wrong a lot many times, but I feel so guilty deep within me when I do something wrong once I realize my fault. At that moment, you may say just anything to me, and I will listen to it and will not utter even a word to give a justification because I already know that I am wrong..

That's how I am..rude, arrogant or whatever..

Go beyond boundaries, may be horizon is just a step away..!!

Believe me, sometimes it just feels amazingly good when we speak out the truth, shed down those tonnes of worries and tensions to someone passing by our lives. That someone may not always be your friend, a well-wisher or your family. It could be anyone, may be a random stranger sitting next to you in the train, or may be someone gulping down a cup of coffee at a table next to you in the coffee shop you are sitting in right now, or the florist whom you grab the flowers from every morning. So anyone here simply means, just anyone. Do not also hesitate to offer your shoulder too, being that special and chosen one to lit up someone else’s life. You might end up saving a ship which sailed through a turmoil of emotions for over a lifetime or may be even more and is now just a moment away before it bites the dust.