Urdu Poetry/ Shayari

Haseen aur khusnuma aalam to beshak roz hota hai

Magar us gam ki badli mei dil ye roz rota hai

Ke shamma jal bhi jaaye to

Shokh mausam na hota hai

--one among the other Random ones I wrote..!!

Child Labor Eradication, Just a Myth

And we say, India is one the fastest growing nations in the world. How can it be? When one of the basic problems like child labor (among several others poverty, illiteracy, corruption etc..) is still as its peak.. I think I was in class 4th or something when I first read about how hazardous the impacts of child labor for a country can be and the number of laws which are already there in place according to the Government of India for its complete inhibition. 16 years from then, a much much longer time span but have we accomplished anything in this direction..let's see..

I am blessed to get an opportunity to stay at/visit various parts of the nation, from Rajasthan, Gujarat (West) to West Bengal, Orissa (East), to Karnataka (South). I still see  so many small kids working in various small places from a tea stall, to small food joints, mid-ways, small restaurants etc. One could see and tell that they can no way be 14 or more years of age. Even when most of these places are located in prime locations, what could be the reason that no action has ever been taken against their employers? Don't tell me that no government officials from Police Department, various ministries ever get a chance to visit or drive through these areas.  (This weekend I saw a lot of such kids and I did not know how can these kids get help/education etc.)

Then there are kids who belong to very poor families, their parents do not afford to send them to schools, in fact they do not afford meals twice a day. And these kids are consequently forced to go out and beg for money. Ain't this also a category of forced begging, another kind of child labor, since we do not have adequate resources available for the families (and thus for the kids belonging to these families) below the poverty line.

Corporates are bound to CSR (Corporate Social Resposibility) activities where they are supposed to spend some money on activities for social upliftment. I get to hear about a lot of such companies, where employees go to some big, renowned orphanages with lots of things to help the inhabitants with their miserable condition. These are places where children are already availing a decent standard of living. Why not such activities are directed to kids who are really helpless, why do we all end up avoiding people who actually need help and provide all the resources to people who are quite well to do..

These unanswered questions, they really need a lot of thought and pondering..Next time you wanna spend some money on charity, please make sure that it reaches people who are really needy..!!

Urdu Poetry/ Shayari

Mauzood-e-waqt ye Khaamosh

Hausalon ke daayron mei simta,

Andheron ki chilman-o-jharokha

Roshan shaamiyano ki aaghosh mein sharik

Minnaton ki tasvirein manzoor na thi;

Jahaan mein muqaddar se jushtzoo mashur sahi

Niste nabood gar koi zalzala kar bhi jaaye

Kismat ki dalilein manzoor na thi,

Ranjishon ki chaadar pe 

Sunehri kalm-o-shyaahi se

Humne manzar wo tarashaa hai

Karaar-e-zakhm ho itna

Bayaan na zakheera-e-alfaaz ho paaye

Dhuaan raahaton ki chaahat ho

Raza Chaahaton ki raahat se

Kaafila badhta chala jaaye

Aur manzilon ki tapish tale

Noor-e-ibaadat ki baarish ho

 Fir mauzon ki jannat mein

Gardishon ka kshitiz rava ho jaaye..!!

Yes, No, Maybe..!!

Sometimes, situations are so sudden, odd and novice that it becomes quite difficult to take a decision. What is even more difficult is to justify later whether what one did was really the apt choice..

Towards the end of the first day of this weekend, I was out for an evening walk, which is an inseparable part of almost all my weekends and sometimes, even weekdays. I was walking down the road, observing the things around, lost in my own thoughts. No sun, no rain and a cool breeze, weather in general was really pleasant. So, it made the experience more enjoyable.

Suddenly, I saw a bunch of 4-5 people coming from the opposite side and now walking towards me, no no no, not to hit me.. :) 

This incident was so sudden that I could notice only three of them, but I believe there were a few more standing behind them. One of them was a male of around 35-40 years of age, a female of around 30-35 years of age and a small kid, may be 7-8 years old. The female walked a little more towards me followed by the male and I could see that they wanted to ask something. The first thing which clicked to my mind, was may be they wanted to ask some directions, may be they were lost. So I just stopped to help them all. 

Both of them asked me the same question with a different set of words, super-imposed to give just one  meaning.."Do you know Hindi? "

I said, " Yes, I do." and I looked at them conveying that I could help you with some directions if you are going to inquire for some. [ I know usually I am not very good at this job, but I know this area quite well now.]

Next statement was, something like this...We came from a village and worked for a guy for a month and he ran away, did not even pay the wages to us..

I was perplexed..I mean I did not know how to react, for I did not know them, I did not know where they were coming from, whether what they were saying was truth or not, why were they telling this to me and of course this was none of my business..I never came across such a situation before this one..I did not say anything for a while and was still thinking about all this..

When I could hear another set of words..which meant.."We have no money to go back to our village and have no money to have food, we have not eaten anything since morning. Could you give us some money?"

I was just out for a walk around my house, so was carrying almost no money first of all. Secondly I did not know them, so how could have I trusted them?

I have always been a believer of the fact that "Beggars (or anyone who asks for money without doing any work) are burden to the society", especially if they are physically fit and capable enough of earning their livelihood. For those who are physically or mentally challenged, this is still acceptable. I was stuck with such thoughts but I managed to convey a "No" to them somehow, by nodding my head in disapproval of their behavior..

I could hear a repeated statement, this time they asked for some money in the name of their kid, for he had not eaten anything since morning.

For a moment I thought of helping them out but then again a logical reasoning occupied my mind. I have been a good observer always and did not get a vibration of any sadness from them, nor did I get the feeling as if they did some hard work for sometime and then the money of their hard labor was not paid to them. It seemed to me like a well rehearsed story, framed perfectly with fake emotions, to captivate the listener and exploit them on the emotional front to get some financial aid. So I denied again, moved forward...

From the moment thereon, I have a little in guilt in some corner of my mind for not helping them.What if they were really hit bad by the circumstances. But then the moment is gone and I have no strong evidences of knowing what is right and what's wrong..

Was my decision wrong ? Yes, No, Maybe

What would have been your take in such a situation..??

Spirit CA Reloaded

I did not have my laptop in the morning for quite sometime in office, so had nothing to do, than just to scribble on bits and pieces of paper. This is when I realized that the Cartoon Artist within me has not died yet. I drew a lot of things and below is just one of them. I took around a minute to come up with this, not bad huh ..!! :)

Even then, let me confess it's a very bad feeling to sit in office without your system, really awkward..!!

The City of Joy, Kolkata/Calcutta

I owed this one to Kolkata or Calcutta from a really, really, really long time. I do not want to come out to be a critic, it's just a narration of my experience with the city, a mix of good and bad things which I noticed during my few visits and stay in the City since 2008.

The city has a slumbered calmness amidst the fast moving in fact, fast running population. I have not noticed any change since 2008 till now i.e. 2012, which is quite a lot of time, 4 years is no way less. The local/city buses still look as old as those stolen away from the time British ruled over our country. I do not know why the streets are not cleaned, as if nobody bothers about the dirt scattered all over the place. 

Another thing which I did not understand is, why 'It is called the City of Joy'?

So when you are on the Howrah bridge going towards Calcutta/Kolkata, there is a huge board which reads out aloud 'Welcome to the City of Joy'. 

I have been asking this question to all the people I have met in there. Nobody knows the real reason. But I think, it is because, people still has a fervour and zeal to fight away all the hardships thrown away to them via under-developed infrastructure of  this metropolitian city, which makes your stay here a differently enjoyable experience.

If you happen to visit Howrah railway station anytime, then you will suddenly realize what population explosion really means. If you stand at a place and not walk for a few minutes, you will end up finding yourself out of the station entrance, people will make you move, wantedly or unwantedly ;)

Now a few good things, 

I see that inflation has not hit that hard to this particular part of the country. One could easily get quite satisfying meal in much much less than what it costs in other cities like Bangalore, Ahmedabad etc. I am surprised to see Kolkata among one of the 10 most expensive cities in India: 
http://omgtoptens.com/misc/most-expensive/top-10-most-expensive-cities-of-india-2012/

Local transportation cost is also pretty low, in fact you would not feel the need of owning a vehicle.

I mean if you leave apart the expense of getting an accommodation in a decent area, everything else is quite affordable.

People are really good at guiding you with directions. The best part is that if they do not know the direction to a place, they will certainly admit it and tell you to ask someone else, instead of making you go over the wrong way. The willingness to admit that something is unknown to you, is scarce in Indian population, but you could see this here in immense quantity. 

During my last visit, this scene reminded me of  a Bollywood movie, Swadesh  :)

English Poetry: Yet, Again..!!

World of miseries

Word of pain,

Immense grief

Instills mysterious relief,

Blistering dreams

Filthy stains,

Eroded days

Nightmare spies,

Treacherous moments

Yet, diced again.

Urdu Poetry/Shayari

Nami pani mei na jo

Ruhaani jheelon mei wo samaayi hai

Shokh bahaaron se nahi

Aarzoo haseen ye churaayi hai

Haafiz maula kya hoga

Tabdil mazaaron mei tujhse tanhaayi hai

Dard taarikho mei nahi darz

Dafn kisi nazm ki yaad parchaayi hai

Manzilein to jahan mei aur bhi hain

Genhraaiyon mei ye sadaayein hi Ilm de paayi hain

Urdu Poetry/Shayari

Ruh ko chukar

nazrei-e-gasht se mehroom

ye jahan aur asmaan

Aks mei jo mazlum 

noor-e-nigaahon se beintehaan

bejubaan aur beparwaah  

Harkaton se door kahin 

khamoshi mei suroor sahi

Chalakte paimaano k daayre

simat jaaye halke halke

Humein aadat to na thi

koi aafat na sahi

Par zubaan mei khumaar

lamha lamha intezaar

Sawaliya jawaab

jazbaaton ka sailaab 

tham jaaye halke halke

Curious Me..!!

I am curious, inquisitively and passionately curious..!!

I want to know everything, answers to all the questions and keys to all the locks, which are there around..I don't know why, but when I see/read something or talk/discuss something with anybody, I like to look at the things from all the different point of views I could. It's superbly interesting to look at the results of all the possible angles till you find the critical angle..and I really really really..enjoy it.. ;)

So, I ask all the questions that arise in my mind, for it's far better to open your mouth, even if you are going to say something really dumb & stupid and clarify your thoughts, instead of sitting down, pretending to be the one 'Who knows it all'..I mean that's what I think, you may have a different perspective..

But there is an issue here, most people that I have come across so far, they don't like to be questioned on any matter..for they presume it as an attempt to degrade them.. but I have no such intentions ever..don't be judgmental.. 

And when a lot of questions get cascaded in my mind during a discussion, I like to ask them asap, as and when I get an opportunity, for I am scared of forgetting to ask them. It makes me uncomfortable even if one of the questions remains unanswered. 

I know..It becomes irritating for people at times when I shoot questions one after the other, but again it is not intentional..

What I'm Upto..??

I feel that the most awesome way of greeting someone is..when you look at them...just Smile..It costs you nothing but environment around feels positive..so that's what I do..But people take it negatively and most of the times I find people wondering..What I'm upto..??

Sorry Sir/Madam..I was just smiling at you and not laughing..It's just my way of saying a...Hi..!!

Tikona Broadband Sucks..!!

We took a prepaid broadband internet connection from Tikona Digital Networks for the year 08/2010 to 08/2011. Initially we were quite contented by the service and the internet speed. However there were hick-ups in the speed as well as internet availability after a period of time. When we wanted to shift to another apartment, even after calling them a number of times, there was no appropriate response from the company officials. We managed to get it done ourselves somehow.

We were quite frustrated with company's broadband service by the end of the year, there was no proper response ever from the customer care representatives. More as if they did not care about the customers.!!

We gave a call to the customer care, asking them to disconnect the services as we did not intend to continue with their internet plan anymore for the year 2011-2012. There were better services available at a much lower cost. Customer care representative, this time took a toll to convince us to continue with the plan. But we had already decided and were stringent to our decision. The person agreed and assured us that the service would be discontinued as and when the previous year's subscription ends.

After a period of around 6 months, sometime in January/February 2012, the company sent us a bill for the year 2011-2012, asking us to pay an amount equivalent to the annual internet subscription plan for the year. However it did not make any sense to send a bill to us for payment when we had already asked for the discontinuation of service. We called up the customer care service to inquire about the bill, when he/she assured us that this was some kind of mistake done by the billing department and would be corrected asap. However, the company had no such intent.

Again after a month or so, they sent us a few more mails, asking us to pay the bill, which they still do, with a threat of taking a legal action against us, if we don't do so. Their representatives call us from Rajasthan and prepaid sim cards of other cities claiming that they are advocates at some Tis Hazari court in Delhi. However, each of these people are well verse in telling about the payment page of Tikona with the exact placement and name of each and every button on Tikona's website. This is quite difficult for someone to remember, who is not a regular visitor of the website, a novice user or a legal practitioner. It takes sometime to recollect these level of details about a website even for a user of intermediate experience with the website

Even more funnier part is that, the person who calls up, is always standing outside the Magistrate's office and going to present the case in the court of law in 15 minutes, which are still not over, even after months. Everytime we track the mobile number via various tools available on the internet, it shows the mobile user's current location as somewhere in Rajasthan. It's a matter of immense shame that we have such ISPs in our country, running such scams and doing frauds to so many people in the country. A single search for complaint against ISPs gives a never-ending list of cases filed against Tikona.

http://www.consumercourt.in/broadband/117152-complaint-against-tikona-broadband.html

http://www.consumercourt.in/broadband/117633-tikona-bill-payment-after-disconnecting-broadband-connection.html

and so on..the list never ends..!!

Urdu Poetry/Shayari

Maayusi ke aalam mei bhi maayus hum nahi

Sannatei ki aahaton mei bhi khaamoshi ka gum nahi

Sukun-e-mohabbat na hokar bhi dard-e-sukun sitam nahi

Mehkashaa deedar hokar bhi khumaar-e-intezaar kum nahi

Random Thought

Bejubaan jo hai lamhaa 

Khaamosh kyun hum hai

Nashe mei sarabor hai jo duniya

par madhosh kyun hum hai

Gumnaam aagosh mei zindgaani

maayne humare kyun gum hai

Dasht-e-waqt ki mazaaro mei

ye aashiyaane kyun num hai

Bewafa chaahat gar hai zarzar

harf-e-ilzam ki sadaaon mei

ruh humari dafn kyu hardum hai 

Government Job = No Work For Life..!!

'Government officials have no intention to work in life ever', a truth not hidden from any Indian over here. They think that they bestow a favor upon us by doing the work, they were once hired and are still paid for. As if they do a favor to all the citizens of India by sitting on the chair for hours less than the actual office hours, whether it's a bank, post-office, water board, electricity or telephone department etc..They know all the tricks in the world to kill time while they are in office. It may be killing time in sipping a cup of tea, with each sip lasting for a minute or so, telephonic conversations- which could span across several minutes to hours..depending on how unlucky you are..

And I came across a similar situation, once again, today. Yep, I had to go and get some work done in the nearby post-office. This one has quiet a good amount of space compared to the typical size of a post office in India. There are two counters, made by an unmarked division of the same table. One for the post or courier related stuff while the other one for savings & deposits related things. While the other man, dealing with courier, parcel and other things, was atleast a little interested in doing his job. While this another guy, quite old one, the in-charge for saving & deposit related things, is pretty lazy, dis-interested in work and hence very very indifferent to people. This guy takes more than 20 minutes just to get an entry done in savings account passbook. Now it's not that hard to imagine the amount of time it would have taken for my chance to come if I was on the 6th number in the queue. He made 2 of these people, standing before me in the queue, go back and get few more documents within the blink of an eye. And he does this intentionally. I think he gets some kind of happiness in troubling people. 

No, no, no..I am not a saddist. I saw him doing it to a hell lot of people before coming to a conclusion. Not only this time but also during my last two visits. I went there since he had asked me to come after a week & collect the NSC. So, I was there, exactly after a week. After waiting for an hour and half in the queue, there came my chance to talk to him. Imagine what he tells me after making me wait for another 15 minutes for no reason..'Oh no no, we are running out of NSC certificates, so come next week and collect it'. I was quiet irritated and said 'You only asked me to come after a week and now you are asking me to come again next week'. He could sense my anger I think. So he said 'Have you put your phone number in the form?' ..I said 'Yes' with brows raised..He said 'Ok then, I will give you a call when it is ready and you may come and collect anytime after that'. I found it worthless to argue with him anymore and simply came back..What else could I have done..He was not going to give it to me today... anyway...

Indian Education System

Somebody questioned about the trends in Education System in various countries today on Quora. While reading about various points mentioned by other people over there and doing a comparative analysis, I could see there are two major drawbacks which the education system we have in India puts forth:

Reservation: As we have reservation of seats for various sections of the society in all Universities/Institutes in India, it many a times(in fact most of the times) also lead to some reserved unoccupied seats in the top/elite colleges of the country. 

Reference for year 2011-2012: http://www.indianexpress.com/news/iits-had-757-seats-vacant-in--11-12-hc-told/962946

Performance Metric: Since we have Board examinations at Secondary/Senior Secondary level and Entrance examinations after Senior Secondary or High School. This in turn decides which stream(Science, Commerce, Arts) or degree major( Like Computers/ Information Technology/Mechanical... for Engineering or B.Com./B.B.A. etc. in case of Commerce and so on..) you may get admitted to. So your overall intelligence and fate is decided based on how you performed on that one particular day, the day of examination.

In general, even the weightage for various topics in each Subject is already decided by the Board/University or the Council conducting the exams, which creates this mindset of paying more attention to those topics which would fetch you more marks to get into the most sought after streams and degree majors in the best Colleges/Universites, even when the student would have no clue if that really meets his/her interest.

How could anyone else decide upon what should have more weightage and what is more important for me to understand and learn by setting up some random curriculum? Each individual is different with different set of qualities and capabilities, so instead of restricting it to a defined set of topics or courses..or whatever..let the person explore, give him/her the freedom to choose..If one selects a subject/curriculum which fits his/her interest aptly, that person can do wonders even in a not so hot/sought after dimension or career option..!!

Compliment Smells Fishy..!!

I find a lot of people longing to hear good words about themselves, just a few words or lines in their admiration makes them do almost anything for you. I belong to the second set of people. Our class of people are different as in we suspect each and every compliment made to you as a trap thrown just to get you caught. I know this may not be the right attitude towards people who are genuinely praising you. But then, this is how the world is now-a-days. Every word of admiration gives me a feeling of suspicion about the intention of the person who just spoke it. 

In today's mean world, where most people don't even waste a minute in talking to somebody without any reason or self gain, why would somebody spend a minute or two just to come to you and say nice things?

However, as they say, A Compliment a Day, Keeps the Blues Away..Certainly a compliment makes you feel a little good about yourself. But continuously re-analyzing yourself to keep up with those honey coated words is a real challenge. September had been a great month to me in that regard. Lots of people have been throwing away lots of nice & sweet words to flatter me..Thank you guys, I would try to take all of them positively..

College Time: Kiddish Act

Look, what have I found going through some old files in the PC..

Ya TinTin cant help it ..hai na..??

Ya TinTin cant help it ..hai na..??

Paida TinTin hua to bevkufi chamki

Uske paas hone se bajti khatre ki ghanti

Hey Hey Hey Hey ..Wo jamke pakayega

Hey Hey Hey Hey..baat baat pe neta ban jayega

Hey Hey Hey Hey..na auro ki sochega

Hey Hey Hey Hey..dimaag saara khaa jayega

Jo milega pachtayega..

But TinTin cant help it ..hai na..??

Papa kehte hain bada naam karega

Unka TinTin to aisa kaam karega

Hey Hey Hey Hey..papa ka naam dubata hai

Hey Hey Hey Hey..har waqt apni udwata hai

Hey Hey Hey Hey..uske accent ka chakkar

Hey Hey Hey Hey..lagta hai 100% bandar

But TinTin cant help it ..hai na..?

Asha, thanks for this one.. I still remember how much fun this one was..Kudos to all my classmates ..!!  Old memories..!! :)

My First ever Wallpaper + My Poem

Mobile Summit-2012

Recently I attended a 2 Day Mobile Summit which was held in J.N.Tata Auditorium, Bangalore. I had a lot of expectations from it as this was the first time for me to attend an event of this sort. Big brands, Big People, Authors were supposed to tell about the Hot or Killer Mobile Devices & Applications and what could be the face of next generation of Mobile Devices & Apps.  Speakers from so many different brands were competing for marketing their mobile products & applications or hardware which may bring in the next revolution: like Intel, Blackberry, Nokia, Samsung, IBM, Facebook and so on..But still, it ended being more of a marketing event than being a technical expo, where people could have demonstrated Next Gen, about to hit Mobile Devices & Applications.

Anyways, most of the speakers threw away some fundas to the start-ups, free-lance developers..etc about how to think big, new & different to make the product international from Day-1. There are no prescribed steps and none of the points put forth are quantitatively measurable. However, for me there were three key take-aways:

• A few speakers talked about how necessary it is to understand the basic human behavior & to have an emotional connect with the users to keep them engaged. Understanding neuroscience-especially psychology is one of key factors behind making an app or product successful.

• A product/app in general should solve a problem, especially those which is faced by many. That should be the main idea but some of the fancy apps/products out there don't do much but are still kind of famous.

• We do judge book by its cover.  Rich UX is very important. Something which is a perfect blend of being Simple, Intuitive, Effective & Appealing. As they say, first impression, most of the times, is the last impression. Something, which I also believe in, personally.

Overall it was quite decent experience of knowing other people's perception, views, ideas and thoughts about the direction Mobile Industry is heading on.

May be I am Arrogant..!!

You may feel I am arrogant but if you think that... I can't help it, that's your thinking about me and I am literally not bothered about it. You may think just anything about me, like it matters to me. I am writing this post based on some of my personal experiences..

I always feel it's nice to help people and it really really really feels great when somebody appreciates you for all the good things you have done to them, in case they do :) . I personally tell everything I notice about someone, may it be good or bad, you may like it or you may not like it, in one or the other conversations with the person. It's just that I have things sorted out almost from the very first day. I don't want to create any kind of false impressions about me in front of anyone, false just does not mean bad here, neither more good than I can be to someone nor more worse than what I am. I just be what I would at least be to that person for the rest of my life until you force me to change for bad ;) . And you need not be that nice to me in return, it's just that don't try to act too smart and mean to me, because I could me much more worse than that to you, if I felt the need to..

I am too much into observing people and trying to find out why the person behaved in that particular way, given a particular situation, but that does not mean that I am GOD, I may also freak out at times, in fact most of the times, if you test my patience to the last possible extent. I like to cherish all the good, innocent people around who do not fake out anything, even if you are bad or have done something wrong, but you feel guilty about it, I would be the first one to help you out of the situation, but then don't expect me to nod my head and say you did what exactly you were supposed to. I will say right on your face even in front of 10 or more odd people if you try to act over smart or cover up your mistake without taking a learning out of it.

I am not always right, am wrong a lot many times, but I feel so guilty deep within me when I do something wrong once I realize my fault. At that moment, you may say just anything to me, and I will listen to it and will not utter even a word to give a justification because I already know that I am wrong..

That's how I am..rude, arrogant or whatever..

Few Lines..!!

Chalte chalte jaise waqt ye jaata hai guzar 

Kehna chahte hain kuch tumse,

Bas soch ye kat jaate hain pehar

Chale jaana chahte hain us mod se kahin door

Na phir jaane kyu raste ye jaate hain tehar

Just a Thought..!!

Waqt gujar jaata hai

Ret ki chaadar pe lamhe fisal jaate hain

Har manzar chod jaaye asar

Maddham maddham is qadar

Ke Lehron ki dhun mei manzilein dhundhla jaati hain

...to be continued

Life is not a triangle, so don’t always apply Pythagoras Theorem

You know what, sometimes, in fact most of the times to be frank, we very meticulously try and plan each and every moment of our lives, so that everything’s done in nothing else but a perfect way. Each step is a measured one.

If there are several ways to reach the destination, we always tend to take the route which either has been tried by a lot of other people or the one which is shorter and simpler in a lot many ways. Most of us lack the spirit to experiment, to stand out of the crowd and shout out aloud what you feel about something. Losing is not always a pain, sometimes it’s just the joy of trying out something different that out-wins even the greatest victory of all times. Just try it out once at least, there’s no harm in embracing the thrilling un-certainty, which might take you through a joyful roller coaster ride.

Go beyond boundaries, may be horizon is just a step away..!!

Believe me, sometimes it just feels amazingly good when we speak out the truth, shed down those tonnes of worries and tensions to someone passing by our lives. That someone may not always be your friend, a well-wisher or your family. It could be anyone, may be a random stranger sitting next to you in the train, or may be someone gulping down a cup of coffee at a table next to you in the coffee shop you are sitting in right now, or the florist whom you grab the flowers from every morning. So anyone here simply means, just anyone. Do not also hesitate to offer your shoulder too, being that special and chosen one to lit up someone else’s life. You might end up saving a ship which sailed through a turmoil of emotions for over a lifetime or may be even more and is now just a moment away before it bites the dust. 

Why do we all die to live, when we actually live to die..!!

It’s been a while since we, humans, last felt the air of content moving through the surface of our body, penetrating deep within our souls, healing the bruises and scars which were unattended for quite a long time now. All that we keep thinking of all the time is ‘Oh Man..!! I achieved this …What’s Next on the list to conquer..!!’.

Life is not a race to be won, an exam to be in the topper’s list, a brutal battle to fight for each and every day, Why can’t we keep things simple? Why don’t we just let this Life be nothing else but Life. What’s wrong in that name? I feel it sounds great this way.

For instance:

When a newly born baby is still toddling with the sunshine smile on his face, someone would not fail to make a remark with that grin on his face ‘Enjoy your childhood as much as you can, it’s just the beginning, you have lots to face and miles to go’.

When a freshman joins a company in which you are working right now, whether your workplace is good or not or the thought that person you just met with is friendly or not will be the second one on the list. The first thing which will pop up in your mind is either ‘Welcome to hell, come and screw yourself  as I do every day..!!’ or ‘ Does not he think too much of himself, an over-smart and overrated chap..!!’

In both the examples just narrated above, be it that sweet innocent child of Christ or the new colleague of yours in the later part

He might not understand what you just said to yourself or thought of while looking at him but don’t you think he is human too. We all keep blowing the trumpet of body language, comprising the 80% of all modes of human to human communication. Believe me if that is the case, you just gave someone, a reason to have an Err..!! feeling too.

Try to look at each morning with a rejuvenated spirit of love and an everlasting deep sense of human emotion, which would make life simple, smooth and easy. I will conclude it with the following lines, extremely close to my heart:

A ray of hope,

took me through

the zigzag row,

where a drop of dew,

smiles with the silvery luster

Just hope, one day

that sunshine serene

will lit up your face

and let it glow..!!

Think beyond the domain of losing and winning, even the sweetest of all wines would lose its taste, the prettiest flower will give up life one day, for each and everything is mortal with a manufacturing and expiry date of every joy, sorrow, emotion and not to forget, life as well.

My Quotation..!!

I was something, I am nothing, I will doubt my own existence in future..!! :\

Lazy Soul..!!

Ya, you read it right, 100%, Lazy soul, that's who I am. I don't know when did I inculcate in me this disease of staying idle without any work for hours and hours. But it's now kind of a vital and integral part of me.

I moved to this new house of mine approximately two months ago. It's been a wonderful place so far. People around are nice in a way. They do not poke nose in your life, still share a moment or two to talk and to be in touch.

One thing which did facinate me about this place, is this amazingly beautiful and green park right opposite to my house. If I peep  through my window now, I could see those lustrous green leaves all around the place. The view itself kind of rejuvenates the spirit within me. I feel so close to nature with these old big trees surrounding the entire place.

When I had come to this place, the first thing which came to my mind was, I would from now on start getting up at 5 in the morning, would go for a refreshing jog and then spend some time there in the park. It's almost two months now as I said before, not even one single day I did what my keen desire is. The only thing which keeps me away from this wonderful start of the day is the too very lazy soul within me. I tried so much but I am not able to defeat this laziness within me. I thought may be on weekend I could give it a try and once I start liking it, I would start continuing it on weekdays too. But all in vain. Weekend puts another blanket of 'not doing anything' thinking in me. I wake up only at sometime post 12, almost miss/skip my breakfast everyday Saturday and Sunday.

I don't know when will I be able to fulfill this wish of mine to wake up early in the morning, like I used to some years back, when I was in school and college..!!

Urdu Poetry/Shayari

Ho rubaru chaahe koi Aks, 
Waqt ko har pal behte dekha hai;
Kya zameen aur aasman, 
Is jahan ne to suraj par bhi, 
Qayamat ko dehte dekha hai;
Taqdir par ho jo inayat iski, 
To har zarre ko sehte dekha hai..!!

Everything keeps changing.. and So do My Choices..!!

I do not know what inspired me to write this. But this is something that I have been thinking from quiet sometime. I have often heard people saying that as you grow up, your likes and dislikes keep changing. But my question is, to what extent?  There can be minor deviations, that’s what I personally feel but absolute contrary is the fact that I have experienced.

There are things which I was mad about, chocolates, ice-creams, books, reading, writing stuff, sketching  & so on.. all these things do not excite me any longer. I had chocolates kept with me for months and months and I did not even look at them, not because I was following a diet plan or something like that. It’s just that there was never a urge to eat them. So is the case with ice-creams. There were numerous things that I liked and could not resist in the past but I hardly feel their absence in my life now. I don’t even know if this is too normal a symptom or quiet absurd, if it is something to be sad about or everything is just as normal as it was, in lines to what they say ‘ Change is the only, ultimate truth of life’.

Alone, you always are..!!

People say that every human being is a part of a battle called life. He/She is a one man army in the struggle, for no on one out there is bothered about the circumstances that person is going through. Everyone is so deeply indulged in meeting their own selfish interests, they could hardly notice that there's someone around them, who is more than downhearted.

The world, relationship, friendship is nothing, but just a myth. Everyone is running in the race of satisfying their ego, during which they don't mind hurting someone's self respect, making someone's life miserable. Humans have no humanity left in them anymore. They are mere bots without hearts, programmed to reach some "finish line" set into their programming, right from the time they come to this world. People say this is life, but I wonder, where is life? Do we really have something called life left around us? Do we really.............? 

                    

Sorry I don't think so...!!

So when somebody says, he/she is with you, don't just blindly believe on that fellow, feeling that he/she is someone different. Don't forget, they are also on the same boats with us. It's not one person's mistake. It's all of us, the whole system, and the injection which has made everyone allergic to greed. Greed to attain something big, greed to be remembered after we die for years, greed to get as more as we could, for whatever we have is never enough for us, that's what we all think all the time. I don't know where and if at all this bot era will end up. 

Devastation, is all I am looking forward to..Hope it will relieve our souls from the Olympics, we are part of every second..!!

I was, I am and I will be.... all alone in the world......So nothing matters in the end...!!

My Quotation..!!

Hyprocrites deserve to be nailed to death..!!

My Quotation..!!

I doubt I will gain anything if I be like you, but I would lose myself for sure..!!

My Quotation..!!

I am blind, I am deaf & I am dumb..I am cold as well, Irony is that; I am still a human..!! 

Strange Feeling..!!

I never felt so lost in my life as I was the other day. I was on my way back to home, and the bus just crossed the stop in front of my eyes, when I was submerged in a volcano of thoughts and emotions. I don't know what it was, but it had a really strange impact on me. I mean, some corner of my mind very well knew that the bus just crossed my stop and I was still sitting down thinking about something. By the time, I completely got my senses back, we had covered quiet a lot of distance. I rushed to ask the driver to stop the bus and just got down, without even thinking whether I would get some conveyance back to home from there or not. How stupid of me, I had to walk down so much just to get an auto finally to reach home.


Another such instance happened the very next day. We reached office, and I did what I used to do everyday, I took my bag and my ID card and when we were about to enter the office through the revolving door, I found out that I did not have my phone. I had a strong feeling that I had used it in the car but I was not very sure. I went to my desk thinking about it till I reached my workstation. I got a strong urge to go back and see if I had missed my phone in the car and that's what I did. I went back and found out that I was absolutely right, it was there in the car.


A lot of such strange things are going in and around me, I am not sure what is causing this, but I surely know that nothing in the world is making me happy these days..!! 

Random Thought..!!

Waqt bikhra hai ret k aasmano pe is qadar 

Nasha kitna bhi gehra ho shaamiyana banta hi nahi..!! :D

My Quotation..!!

Life's always forfeited in pursuit of its accomplishment ..!!

My Quotation..!!

Race is over when I stop running..!!

My Quotation..!!

Irony: Liar, fake & dishonest people are always happier, and more than often, the happiest..!!

My Quotation..!!

Sometimes even the brightest hour hasn't got enough brilliance to take away all the darkness around..!!

Away from Humanity..!!

One very strange thing I have been noticing these years..!!

People say that as we grow up, we become intelligent, get a better & clearer understanding of things, we tend to become more matured. What I have observed is that simultaneously we also become less sensitive & more selfish, more self-centered & self-oriented.

For instance, look at a group of infants, if one cries for some reason, there are more than 100% chances, that all the others would give him/her a company in next 5-10 minutes. Whether they know or not why the other one is sad, they try to share the pain with what/how-ever they can..

Contrarily, if you have ever observed a group of grown up matured people, you would find that if one out of a crowd is sad or in a bad mood, others would either be gossiping about him/her, would insult his injury or would be happy deep within their heart about his misery..As we grow older, we tend to move away from that thin line of humanity. 

The other day, I was going to office with my cousin in her car, I saw a gang of really small kids walking down the street in a pretty miserable condition, they looked really poor. I don't know why but I could not look at them, even a sight of them made me feel as, if I would look at them, they would feel that I am mocking at them and making fun of their poverty. 

Most people would have maids or servants at their homes, to get their work done. Ok, fine you will have to give them work, so that they may earn their livelihood, but does that also bring along with it the habit of mistreating them? In offices too, I have seen that, if there are servants, people would not do their work at all. They would go around the coffee corner for dozens of times, but would feel ashamed of carrying their used coffee mugs back to the tray of used mugs.. 

I feel that those people who work for us in some way or the other, are potentially more capable as they do their own work, and carry our lives too on their shoulders..

Today if they belong to an economically weaker section, then its probably because they were not given enough chances to grow the way we did get.

Its easy to become harsh and rude, but its too difficult to become humane, gentle and respect other's dignity, but that's something which would distinguish you from the other ordinary chunk of people ..!!

Urdu Poetry/Shayari

Didaar-e-waqt k kaafil aur bhi hain

Mazaar-e-waqt mei shaamil aur bhi hain

Zarre zarre se mukhaatib sirf waqt hi hai

Naachiz ne to bas ye gustaakhi ki hai

Daastan-e-waqt ki surkhiyaan tash-heer ki hain

Urdu Poetry/Shayari

Humein ilm bhi na tha is baat ka

Ke dua teri is qadar lagegi

Duniya kehti hai khushnasib hain hum

Par haqeeqat ki inaayat se door kahin 

Is rooh mei kahin dafn hain hum

Lost link..!!

As the moment blinks

life's so petty,

it makes me think;

a step forward, 

and you meet a kink

though full of xings,

there's no link.....

Time..!!

Time, this priceless

Hovers you speechless

Lingering around memoirs

Filters thou restless

Its never too late

Nor can it come soon

Sharp as always,

For nothing else can be,

Its vertices

A line on horizon

With the arms wide open

There's no formula

Certainly not proven

Stray across the vaccum 

Merely ecstasy may deepen

Mysterious Me..!!

I don't know why am I so weird. Sometimes I talk as if I am a chatterbox, will say something or the other, with no reason at all, and most of it won't even make any sense to me. I do not know what kind of an impression it leaves to the listener, may be that I am very immatured & impulsive..

This is one part of me which even I have not explored properly so far. It's just that I keep on saying whatever pops up in my mind without thinking and with no idea of whether I should or should not...I am just thinking of a similar incident which happened today, now when I re-analyze the whole situation, I feel guilty of saying so many things, and now I believe that someone has rightly said this..you can't take your words back & undo the impact/effect of those words..

Sometimes I wonder if I have a split personality or something, I would be so so so silent at times, that people urge me to say something while sometimes so talkative, that I loose the control over myself and would say anything..and anything means..just anything..!!

Its like an ocean which stays calm as long as it is possible, with everything inside being thrown away on the other bank, where it does not make any sense at all..

For now, I am a question mark for myself..!! :D

Flash

As the moment blinks

life's so petty,

it makes me think

a step forward, 

and you meet a kink

though full of xings

there's no link

                                 ..to be continued

Hausla..!!

Hum lehron mei kagaz ki kashti yun utaare

jaise samundar se purani dosti ho koi

Lehrein buland chaahe kitni bhi kyun na ho

humare hoslon ki udaan ko choo bhi na payengi

A Random thought..!!

My silence speaks more than words

but whatever it says 

could be heard by no-one,

Eyelashes down I see more than with my eyes wide open

before I try I am claimed to be blind,

I could hear it clearly 

before you have ever said anything

but you firmly believe

I never give it a try,

I could feel the breeze

much before it blew,

I got drenched

much before the sign of rain,

Footprints engrossed, you went away

did you ever care

I want you to stay,

A turmoil of emotions 

only a storm's left at my bay,

Left broken deep in my heart I feel

every dream, every moment

it all belongs to me which you steal,

Lately, I feel, its not you

but 'I' within me which kills..!!

My Quotation..!!

One who has always experienced nothing else but victory, has always the fear to lose..it's the loser..who has got only the vision of victory with no fear at all..!! 

Incredible Moments..!!

There are somethings, some moments in life, which would never become old or loose its value, more you think about it, happier and prouder, it will make you feel..

Everyone says that this teacher in the school or that faculty in the college have made them learn a lot in their lives. But there was one faculty in my college who made me learn one very important thing in life. Every human being in the world has got atleast one good thing to teach you, it can be anything, you just need to explore the opportunity to learn. The most admirable thing about her comes out to be her honesty, one quality which is at the verge of extinction in human beings.

There was this subject called Real time systems for us, and for me it was quiet a lot of fun, for it was something, for which you need brain to apply for, there was nothing to cramm, but everything to understand. Moreover since all the other students were afraid of it, it was a challenge for me to conquer. I never paid attention to what was being said during the lectures, and those who had opened the textbook ever, it was kinda nightmare. They had made a big fuss about it.

The day I opened the book for the first time, I was a little skeptical, because it seemed to contain lots & lots of words and words and words, no diagrams, or problems..i thought its another subject which would suck a lot with lots of things to cramm..

But then when i started going through the content, i found it pretty interesting and it became one of my favourite subjects during engineering. I kinda got a masters in the subject without even listening to anything in the class and with no help at all. Since everyone was afraid of it, it used to boost my level of confidence, will and curiosity for understanding the subject better, because I like doing things which people try to escape from..

Within a few days itself everyone started coming to me to seek tips, tricks and help for the subject. For me the most proud moment was, when one of my faculty, who was pursuing her M.Tech. asked me to teach her the subject. Why proud ? being an undergraduate student, even getting the reuqest to help someone doing post-grads is something in itself. I for once said why are you kidding, you know more than me. She pursuaded, saying that she sill fail the subject if I don't teach her. That made me feel really really proud.

I took around 6-7 classes for her, of about 2 hours each, everytime I used to explain or teach something to her, she used to say, I am not able to understand anything, I would fail the subject. She but I did not loose the hope. 

I taught her the best possible way I could, and I was more than confident that she would atleast pass with flying colors. You always are, when you know how you have taught something to somebody, believe me..!!

I do not want to exaggerate anything, but that was my final year in college, which got over, her results were still to come, she thanked me when I left and I wished her all the best and came. Suddenly around after 2-3 months my college got over, she pinged me on facebook, I had almost forgotten but she did not, she told me that the exam results are out and I want to thank you. I was really happy, for my efforts had also succeeded along wiht hers, but what made me even more proud was when she told me that she has not only passed but also topped in the subject. I congratulated her and said I knew this that you know everything and you were just pretending. She said that one sentence which I would probably not forget in my life ever..Both of us know how much I knew and if i would have passed or not. Today if I have topped its only because of you..

Although I taught her the subject, but she taught me how to be modest, how to appreciate someone else's efforts and how to not give more weightage to age than knowledge..